~tHe OnE @Nd OnLy*~

2009-04-26T01:13:00.001+08:00

KIDS WHILE IT LASTED

Because we will always remember the days we slogged through the projects, because we will always remember the times we studied day and night, because we will always remember the moments that took our breaths away, because we will always remember the companions who stayed close to our hearts, because we will always remember the fun and laughters, tears and heartbreaks, because someday we will all grow up... because 'someday' has come...

Omg... I have graduated...

2008-12-01T22:19:00.002+08:00

I dun believe this! Today is suppose to be one of the happier days of my life~ I got offered a job~But its all ruined~ All ruined by those small little words that is piercing my heart once again~

OooOOO~ Should I continue to trust what I have always believed or to believe what HB has said? I have not trusted HB from the start. In fact, I think she might be one of those that is always trying to sow discord~

Darn it omg! So sianz again! Just wanna do something evil!! AHHHHHH!! Haiz.. still got 2 more interviews to go tmr~ Dun think abt it~ Its over and just let it be~ It really doesnt concern me anymore~ Damn it stop thinking! Haiz....

2008-11-30T16:31:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Exams is finally over~ Well think i might not do very well for 304 Audit..~ The rest Im not very sure as well... Just pray hard that i will be able to do all right overall and up my GPA at least.. Well, PA has started.. Feeling abit sianz cos i dun even have one day of rest. However, I must say life after exams is definitely good! Met my vj frens for dinner on my last day of exams~ Its nice to just relax, have dinner sit around and talk cock thru the nite~( ok not thru the nite~ till 10 plus only hah... Wkend was fun as well! Finally able to do some exercise! Went for vball training and felt really good after 3hrs of workout! I definitely still wanna go for a swim though.. Hopefully i would be able to do it next wk~

After vball, took a super long nap in my hall b4 rushing down to XY's home for chalet! ZZ brought down his whole set of XBOX 360 together with the drums electric guitars and microphone and all of us started playing guitar heroes! Real fun! Basically its the same as those in arcade just that we get to play it in the comfort of XY's hse~ (though i must say its really hot/humid in her hse)

1st time i saw Damon in person. Nice person~ Quite crappy as well~ Feel so happy for XY and to see them so loving together =)~ ZZ and teresa left earlier cos they are too shagged out after one full nite of singing and guitar playin~ while the rest of us continued our Mahjong session~ As usual, Im the biggest loser. (luckily we played chips and not real money or I would have lost near to 10 bucks ahha) Luck was totally on Rina's side and she kind of like beat all 3 of us and won quite a pile!~

Would be having 2 interviews tmr~ Hope i will be able to do well and get selected for both. Wonder when scb will give me a reply~ Hope it will be a favorable reply as well.. Subject registration is tmr as well~ Eddy will be doing it for me in the morning~ I will have to rush back to sch and amend anything if I am unable to obtain any modules~ Hope he will be able to get all for me then I can go for vball training tmr =)

Yeah! I guess the mood have changed~ Im no longer depress =) At least, Im making sure i wun get so depress again~ Its time to forget what is meant to be forgotten =) !

2008-10-03T17:02:00.002+08:00

Sometimes When We Touch
Olivia Ong

You ask me if I love you

and I choke on my reply

I'd rather hurt you honestly

than mislead you with a lie

And who am I to judge you

in what you say or do

I'm only just beginning

to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch

the honesty's too much

and I have to close my eyes and hide

I want to hold you till I die

till we both break down and cry

I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all it's strategy

leaves me battling with my pride

But through all the insecurity

some tenderness survives

I'm just another writer

still trapped within my truth

A hesitant prize fighter

still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch

the honesty's too much

and I have to close my eyes and hide

I want to hold you till I die

till we both break down and cry

I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you

and drive you to your knees

At times I'd like to break through

and hold you endlessly

At times I understand you

and I know how hard you try

I watched while love commands you

and I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters

still searching for a friend

a brother or a sister

but then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch

the honesty's too much

and I have to close my eyes and hide

I want to hold ya till I die

till we both break down and cry

I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

2008-09-04T21:52:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Today is definitely one of the most ridiculous day in my life. Have never seen 2 frens argue so aggressively before. For me, I guess I'm the kind who would never show my anger in front of anyone. So i was quite surprised when 2 person can really ask each other for a timing and a place and then meet at that exact time so that they can argue it out. Of course, I was there hoping to clarify things and to stop them if anyone starts punching the other. Luckily, that didnt happen afterall. The arguement lasted for over an hr and basically, they were just repeating the same few incidents over and over again. I guess both have their own reasons and both felt that they were right in their own way. Since both of them are my friends, I do not know where I should stand except to stand at where the truth is. Luckily, there were other friends there as well to help cool the 2 guys down. Now, everything has been explained and they are finally back to normal once again. Hope both of them are really fine. Afterall, it started from a very small matter which was blown way out of proportion. Didnt expect it to aggravate to such an extend. Well, its finally settled and hope this matter would never be brought up ever again.

2008-08-29T18:46:00.002+08:00

Going clarke quay later~ celebrating Wei Lie's Bdae~ Going broke soon~ Needa save up to buy a new hp =)~ This wkend will be really busy~ Gotta send in all the resumes for perm jobs... Global banks... Looks like i really must buck up from now on...~ Its time to wake up...~ No one will take pity on a lousy fooL~ No more skipping of lessons and lectures from now on..~ Flung a pop quiz.. Only i can get myself out of this mess afterall...

The heart is dead~ But the mind must move on..~

2008-08-28T02:14:00.003+08:00

Haiz... Seems like im still very affected by it... Why? Its been so many mths le... Its time to forget and move on... Why cant i seem to move on at all.... Its as if time has stop ever since that very moment... I cant seem to forget... Not even one bit... Its like..the more u try to forget.. the harder it is for u to do so.. Not even one bit of it is forgotten.. Why... Bloody damn brain.... I need help... I think im turning mad soon....Haiz...

2008-08-12T10:08:00.003+08:00

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

[Chorus:]Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

[Chorus:]Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Its already been 3 mths..~ I really wonder if it will get any better... Everyday I have been trying to enjoy my days to the fullest~ Going on 2 holidays~ Playing ard with my frens..~ Losing track of who I am and what I really want in life anymore...~ Nothing seems important to me and I have lost the motivation to work towards any target...~ I really needa get better in time....

2008-08-06T02:20:00.002+08:00

Bdae over lor... Aiyoh... 23 yrs old liao... Today, I went airport with Daniel, Berl and Stanley to fetch Dear Princess Liyen back from Indo~ Had a super nice meal at popeye~ Treated some of them to Popeye as a way of saying thanks for the prezzies they gave =)~

Palembang Murtabak is nice!! Thanks to Princess Liyen who brought it all the way from Indo~
Thanks to all the frens who remembered my bdae and send me a simple nice sms~ Quite touched that so many pple actually remembered my bdae to the extend that my inbox was flooded with bdae greetings =)

The most impt greeting from a particular someone however, did not come... Guess its finally the end... It has come to the extent that she doesnt even bother or doesnt care for even 1 sms anymore... Wonder why it actually ended on such a sad note... Was it something i had done wrong? Or was it just her? Kind of sad... Kind of disappointed... But of cse... Im didnt let that spoil my day since i was with my indon frens the whole day and had fun the whole time...

Really enjoyed myself and once again..thank you all who remembered =) I really truly appreciate it...

2008-08-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

Wa! Its been a long time since i last update this super outdated blog. Think its time i tidy up the cobwebs once again =)~ So many things happened during the past mths....~

I guess the one thing that hit me really hard would be breaking up with my darling of 5yrs ...~ Of cse, many other things happen during these past few months... I was also able to tell who were my true frens and who were the ones who accompanied me thru these hard times... I also went thru my first internship and got to know so many more new frens... I went to 2 diff places for holiday! Hong Kong and Bali are fun fun fun!!! I just love the water sports in Bali! Hong Kong is all abt eat and shop haha! Got quite a few prezzies this yr as well~ Be it farewell for my intern or bdae prezzie~ Just wanna thank all who made the effort to remember my bdae and those who got me prezents =) Love ya all~

Shall go into more details abt each activities in days to come =)

2007-12-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

Updating my super outdated blog...

Well hasnt been the best of hols for me... A tiring day today... Went to school for subject registration in the morning~ Was darn unlucky... Could not get 2 modules even though i click on the dot~ In the end had to reshuffle all my modules just to fit those 2~ Now on a 5 day work wk... Quite sad cos i not taking with anyone... Unless eddy taking the same indexes as me... Had vball in the evening~ or rather at nite~ didnt play very well... most prob bcos haven gotten over the sian-ness yet...morale damn low today~ cant even feel the atmosphere of the game at all~ cant get myself into the mood of competition...

outing has been enjoyable on the whole except for one...~ one of the most disappointing outings..~ with ziqinz and ww and daniel~ somehow i feel like im just shopping with daniel... cos the 2 gals always disappearing on their own...~ but guess it cant be help ba... since they dun like to wait...~ still remember had to pay 30 bucks for my fish and co meal~ one of the most expensive meal ever had in fish and co...~ the few times when i paid more then that was when i paid my gf's share as well...~ that was bcos i was suppose to have a free kids meal frm a coupon.. in the end they say to enjoy the offer must pay thru citibank credit which none of us have. So bo bian lo~ pay all in cash including the supposed free meal..~

Just hope that if we ever have any more outings with them, it will be more enjoyable la~ At least walk together and not disappear time and again... as if we are playing hide and seek cos its really quite tiring sometimes..~

Hols are fast... Before u know it, sch reopens again. Its alreayd 10th dec darn it!~ 18 more day before we know our results~ another 1 wk before christmas~ another 1more wk then sch reopens.... Why is it that time passes so fast when u are slacking?> haiz..>~

2007-09-25T01:39:00.000+08:00

Pple are really weird beings. Just when u think u know them inside out, u will be surprised when u are proven wrong. Always thot that only girls would be a walking time bomb but im proven wrong when there are so many cases of male walking time bombs around me as well~ Always thought that gossiping only happens between girls but was once again proven wrong when so much gossiping was done by guys ard me as well.

Think my theory of no true fren in uni still holds true. Life in uni is just too hectic and it seems so impossible to know true trustworthy frens~ Frens that u thot are trustworthy and nice always dun turn out the way u expect them to be~ You would be surprised that even frenships that u thot would last many yrs down the road would actually be so frail and so easily broken~ Yup~ Its sad but its true~ All pple care abt is work and i dun blame them for it~ bcos im also guilty of that~ but its just sad that all these are happening and its so true cos its all ard~

Thats y, I still believe that the most trustworthy frens are those made in secondary, jc and army days~ Though i dun show it~ Im just grateful that some are always ard whenever i need them~ =)

Personally, i dun believe in having many frens~ Maybe thats y i keep a low profile in hall as well~ Whats the point of having so many Hi-Bye friends that will only come to u when they need ur help? Pls dun waste my time and i dun wanna waste urs as well~ Many are afraid of lonliness but i think i have gotten use to all that~ I would rather do things alone then have a dozen of fake frens ard me. Afterall, its really tiring to have to act even during rest times~

Although i dun get to meet my true frens often, but i believe that if we are really gd frens~ Our relations would never worsen even if its just meeting once every half a yr or even longer =)

2007-09-07T19:52:00.000+08:00

Confident i was so confident~ I could come up with all the journal entries~ All the hardwork...Doing past yr papers are finally paying off...but...Morale drop to rock bottom when my balance sheet cant balance~ No time to go back check... Missing one million somewhere... Time stops before i could get back and find the mistake... Completed the test with an error in balance sheet... Income statement will definitely get affected... Just hope my statement of changes in equity is not affected... Totally sianz diao le... So many pple can balance... although it doesnt mean they are definitely right... but the fact is i cant seem to balance it... Haiz super sianz now la damn~

2007-09-02T02:10:00.000+08:00

Can't seem to get rid of this song frm my head~ Its called whine up~ nice song =)

2007-08-27T02:29:00.000+08:00

doing survey on how many hrs an average university student slps~
ok~ think im really a pig~ on wkends i slp as much as 8 to 10 hrs!!!
wkdays~ usually i will slp at 1 plus am and wake up at 730~
now that i cut my hair~ i can wake up at 740! yeah!!~ which is like 6 1/2 hrs of slp!~

My roomie slps ard 4hrs~ Another fren of my said that few wks b4 exam~ His sleeping hrs get as little as 0!!!! Yup~ his gpa is 5!! After 2 sems!! Jian Wen once told me he slept for 2 hrs only!~ Not sure if that is norm for him... but he seemed more awake then me!! When i slept for near to 7 hrs!!! okok~ basically this just comes to show that im slping too much~

Shall try to cut down on my slping time but unlike them... will try to slp ard 5 1/2 hrs to 6 hrs a day =) I think that is the min amt of slp i will need and still be awake during lectures~ Think i will have to stock up on my mint sweets and coffee lo~

2007-08-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

okokk~ i know i did say im not suppose to come online so often anymore.. but today its different... i will probably kick myself if i didnt write this on my blog...
Ok~ today I went all the way down to orchard for a facial treatment!!! Well, was suppose to meet jx after that... but... during the wkends, gotta know that my grp had to do some presentation for my second spec module... so bobian... gotta cancel my meeting with her...

Anyway, back to the facial... Ya, bought this one time special trial session for 18bucks while at an exhibition. So when i went there, i kind of like expected to wanna just go for the session lo~ But yup, think they damn smart.Brought me into a room and started forcing me to sign up all the different packages!!!~ They started with this 400 bucks package!~ They were there saying oh its student package very cheap etc etc!! Then they were like~ Ur skin condition is really bad~ Im sure u wanna look better rite? If u go those HDB ones its also ard this price~ Then of cse, i came up with reasons like oh im damn busy~
Everyday project in sch etc etc~ But of cse that wun deter them~ She went on to say like~ oh have no worries,..every treatment is just like 1hr plus~ im sure u can afford to squeeze out 1hr in 1 wk~ Of cse i wun give up that easily as well... So, went on to complain abt how poor I am... Only got enough money to pay for my 3 meals which consists of bread and bread only~ Ahahah~ thats when she start to go for cheaper plans!! Plans that are cheaper than STUDENT PLAN!!! WTH!!! Yup so somehow she came up with another plan that was 360 bucks~~ Of cse i said no~ In the end we went on and on and on until the price finally drop to 200 bucks~ Its a treatment plan meant for acnes~ I kind of feel sad for the person... cos she really wasted so much of her energy and time to get me to sign a plan... so in the end i just gave in la~ but as usual i told her i no money so will pay by installment lol~ She was like kind of shock... cos she said no one pays in installment ahhaha!!~ Then i said~ well no installment then i got no money to pay lo~

Thats when she finally conceded and say, okok fine~ u shall pay by installment !!~~ So yup paid 50 bucks lo~ Still got 150 more to go~ Then the treatment started~ Ultimate painful experience!!! First she put some cream and waited till the cream dries up b4 washing it away. Then she put a mask for me~ After that~ came the ULTIMATE KILLER!! she started squeezing my ..erm..pimples? blackhead?? omg!! its was freaking painful!! pain to the max!!! The whole time i was like enduring like mad la!!! I think she must have been venting all her frustrations on me simply bcos i gave her so much trouble during the negotiation. I guess i must have been bleeding, cos she was using alot of tissues while squeezing ahahah!~ Anyway after that she applied some cream again~ and yup the session was over~ It took in total ard 2 and half hrs!!!~ Freaking long~ mostly due to the stupid negotiation~ ahhaha~ Well, still got a few more sessions~ hopefully next mon wun be such a painful exp anymore =)

Anyway, one advice to those who have no intention of signing any packages. Dun even go when they say 1 free trial or whatsoever shit!!!~ Cos basically the tatics they use, in my opinion is really damn aggressive and they wun really stop until u sign a package with them. Unless u really wanna treat whatever problem that u have~ u should not go la~ Yup thats it =)

2007-08-20T00:11:00.001+08:00

My resolution....

Time to get serious in whatever i do~
Not to waste time doing unnecessary stuffs again~
To keep ur frens close and the pple u hate even closer~
Stop taking afternoon naps~
Drink coffee whenever necessary~
Msn only when im really bored and on wkends~
To be able to achieve whatever that was stated above~

2007-08-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

Finally done with harry potter book 7~ Well, think the endings all right~ Was hoping that she would have talk abt how Ron and Harry finally prosposed to Hermione and Ginny and about what happened immediately after the final battle~ Some parts that i didnt really understand was... y was it that 'he-who-must-not-be-named' can fly!!!~ Its not explained is it? And how did he amplify his voice without using a loudspeaker?? Throughout the story, didnt really get to see how strong Voldermort actually is~ He only strikes fear within pples heart but everytime when he actually does strike, somehow he cant seem to kill anyone~

Quite sad when Dobby died~ Severus as well~ Fred's death was quite abrupt~ It was as if she was trying to kill everyone such that no one can come up with a book 8. Nonetheless, still an interesting book and I think its definitely worth the price that u pay for the book~

Sianz... end of a good series... Wonder what other books can enchant me like what harry potter did to me...

2007-08-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

Thoughts on stepping into hall4 reading room for the 1st time this sem... SIANZ!!!~

Well, really hate to stay there alone~ Fortunately, didnt slp the whole time i was there even though i was not under the effect of caffeine (didnt drink coffee the whole day!!) but slept till 10 plus and went back room for a nap at ard 3 plus~

Tuts seemed never ending~ Competed one ytd AA202~ another 2 today~ AA202(yes again!) and AA201~ another 3 more for this wk that i haven touch yet... AA201 (yes! another 201 bcos there are 2 seminars in 1 wk) BL246~(my law 2nd specialisation~) and a presentation coming up for AB214 (cant prepare now cos topic will be given tmr and presentation on thurs!!)

So busy so busy so busy!!! AHHH!!!!~

Outing at PQ hse~

2007-08-11T02:07:00.000+08:00

Well, went PQ hse once again~ Met up with Jx and Pq at pasir ris control station and headed for her home!~ Saw her bf jian xing (i guess thats his name) at her hse~ Was fed like a pig during the few hrs there~

1st, she made some smoothie for us which was quite milky and thus really filling~(nice!) then, had some salad~ after that came the main dish~ tomata pasta with chicken and mushroom~ ate while watching protege~ its kind of like an educational show telling us abt the harmful effects of drugs haha! After dinner, we continued on with 2 packets of chips~ Theres this bbq flavoured packet that tasted really good and everyone was snatching for it whahha~ After protege~ we carried on with another movie (i think its called - school musical etc etc) Had DINO MILO!!!~ my stomach was bursting by then~

left her hse at ard 1140pm~ didnt make it in time for the last train~ so JX and I shared a taxi home~

Oh yes!! and i got my bdae prezzie frm pq~ capuccino!~ ahha~ didnt expect her to actually remember me telling her that i really love cappucino lol~ anyway yup was happy with the prezzie =)

2007-08-07T00:21:00.000+08:00

my thoughts on the 1st day of sch... bad...

Woke up at 8 this morning. After packing all my stuffs, found that i have one large reebok bag, 1 big plastic bag and a laptop to bring to sch!!! Squeezed onto bus 55 after much trouble and was lucky to find one seat... or rather... make it 2... i tried to put everything on my lap but the bag is just too big and bulky, its occupying 2 seats haha~

by time i reach mrt its ard 9... wonder y theres still so many pple going to work at 9!!! dun they have to get to work b4 830?? anyway... managed to squeeze into the mrt after waving goodbye to 1 train service~

179 was terrible as always... the queue was horrendous as usual and carrying that load just proves to be too much of a hassle for me... really feel like throwing everything on the floor and just go... was sweating like a dog by then anywya...

when i reach sch... realised that i had to attend a tut on tues... and i have not even done the tut... and after surfing thru edventure... i noticed that i had to hand in some pretest assignment on tues as well...!!! Basically, bad news came one after another and before i knew it... 4 tuts had to be done 2 by tues another 2 by wed... spent as much as 40 plus bucks on notes alone~

will be buying my text tmr~.. wat a 'nice' way to start a new sem....

2007-08-06T01:33:00.001+08:00

bdae bdae!! its my bdae today!! or rather... its ytd!!~ yeah!~ well went out with tingz~ had a gd meal at soup restaurnat!!~ love it man~ then went ps~ got a new set of speakers wahahah!~ went shop ard and had dinner at hong kong cafe... well bascially its just mee goreng with egg and luncheon meat.. and it cost a whopping 6 bucks!! and that is excluding gst and service charge sia!!! anyway.. its a fun day !!~

2007-08-05T01:07:00.000+08:00

ytd went to clean up my room~ had 3 supervisors who came along~ daniel, zi qin and wan wei~ all super eye powers sia haha~ but still gotta thank them~ at least when they are ard~ i wun feel so bored haha~ so THANKS guys~ u made my day haha~

today has been a really tiring day~ went for ippt even though im down with cough and flu~ did ok for my 4 stations~ but of cse failed my run~ walked with zelgan and frank~ saw them taking ippt as well! so coincidental! didnt wanna take the risk of running~ saw too many incidents of pple dying due to runs le wahahah~ (ok.. excuses... but hey!! im seriously ill wat haha~)

right after that, came home~ ate my dinner and began shifting all my stuffs back to hostel~ was already dead tired after shifting all the stuffs into the van~ when i reach NTU~ i still had to unload everything~ and carry all the stuffs up 4 levels!!! The fridge is so darn heavy!!! Anyway, thanks to dear i was finally able to shift all my stuffs back to hostel again =)

anyway.. finally done with hostel matters...now its time to worry abt... sch reopening.... haiz....

2007-08-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

cough always seems to be in a very bad condition at night... i wonder why...

getting more and more forgetful...went into bathroom without switching on the heater... went out of showers without bringing out my towel... becoming as blur as a pig~

2007-08-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

today~ went out with ww~ got a prezzie frm her ! =) met up at ard 1 plus~ ate at ding tai fung~ i had a bowl of noodles and we shared xiao long baos~ After that went to catch a movie~ invisible target~ we then went shopping for awhile before heading down to PS for dinner~ had cai fan while she had carrot cake~

It was fun and nice talking to her~ gotta know alot abt her and qin~ some secrets abt them as well haha~ On the whole~ Nice outing =)

2007-07-31T01:42:00.000+08:00

went to town today~ met up with zi qin at ard 1230~ bought tix at cineleisure and went for a nice meal at sakae~ finally get to use my 5 dollar discount coupon! yeah!~ Ate at sakae for almost 2 hrs!! From 1 all the way to 3pm~

After that we rushed down to cine for our movie 'Alone' which starts screening at 3.10~ She bought popcorn and coke~ By the end of the movies~ we only managed to clear half the popcorns~ Well the movie aint as scary as i thot it would be~ Unlike shutter, the scenes in the movie aint that horrifying and she was literally laughing thruout the whole movie~

We then went on to search for PQ's bdae prezzie but to no avail... Still cant find a nice prezzie for her... Ate japanese noodle frm taka~ was quite thirsty and bought 2 bottles of ice mountain frm cold storage~ I left for home at ard 8pm while she went off to meet her frens for a nice steamboat dinner~

On the whole, it was an enjoyable outing at orchard~ =)

2007-07-29T23:21:00.000+08:00

well... sch is starting soon.. starting to dread sch once again... that moody feeling is setting in once again... suddenly i have no mood for anything again... outings, shifting stuffs into hostel, cleaning up hostel... everything~ now my mind is a blank... i just feel like hiding in myblanket and not think abt wat is gonna be installed for me... just looked at my timetable for the 1st time~
realised i made a huge mistake!~ such a huge mistake that i will regret for the rest of this sem~
everyday my lessons starts at 830am and on 2 days it will end at 630pm while another 2 days it would end at 430pm... all these was done just to cater to one of my fren...its not his fault~ i dun blame him at all~
its my own fault cos i was just blindly following their timetable~ if i had been more independent and stick to my original plan~ all these would not have happened~ hopinh that a miracle would hapopen during add drop and maybe im able to change one or 2 of my 830 classes to a later time..really dun wish to wake up so early everyday...

2007-07-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

had a fun day at sentosa ytd~ a total of abt 11 pple went~ its been a long time since i last played beach vball~ although we played vball for only a short time~ it was good enough =) After that we also played monkey~ captains ball and frisbee~ After sentosa, we had our dinner at Thai Express b4 heading home~
Initially felt quite sianz cos a few pple who originally planned to come back out at the last miN~ but its still ok~ all was fine~didnt really dampen our mood cos we still enjoy ourselves in the end!~ =)

2007-07-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, went Bugis with the conference guys!~ Had steamboat at some la mei huo guo bcos chong qing was way too crowded!~ Pple who went include~ Dan, Luke, Colin, Brendan, Stanley, Ww,Zq, Peisi, Pammie, Jay and his sis, Kar wai . After dinner, Zq , jay and sis went home while the rest headed down to EastCoast Park to look at 'stars'. (It was damn cloudy la!~)
Tecky joined us while we were there and he even brought a camera with him~ On the whole had quite a lot of fun ytd though my pants got stained with some mud~

The Great Betrayal!~

2007-07-11T12:49:00.000+08:00

well feeling damn pissed off now~ thought it would be fine after a nite's slp but damn~ it aint getting any better man~

Got bastard by a farker yesterday~ Was suppose to register my subjects with my frens~ namely Junhao~ Benny~ Timothy~Qiao Yang~ Junhao and I are in double specialisation course so, we can apply earlier than the rest~ Benny failed one of his modules last sem so he can apply later than Junhao and I but one day earlier than the rest~ Timmy and Qy will apply one day later than us~

So, ytd morning~Being the kiasu me~ I decided to rush down all the way to NTU just to apply for my modules~ Luckily for me, both junhao and I got the modules that we planned for =)
After that, i went to daniel's hse with a light hearted mood~ not knowing the shock that was already installed for me~

Well upon reaching home after a nice dinner at mos burger, i went online and saw Benny on msn~ Naturally, out of care of concern as a fren, i asked him how his registration went.. and whether he got the same modules as junhao and I~

Well, it seemed that he didnt get what was originally planned.. Either bcos his fingers were too short and fat and thus,too slow in clicking~ or he was just plain unlucky to not be able to get what we originally planned for~ Basically, i dun give a shit whatever reason it was... Cos right after that, he just applied for other modules~ and he changed junhaos modules as well... so that junhao would have the same modules with him... and all this while i had no knowledge abt it...

If he had told me earlier... if he had told me while he was changing~ i could have done something abt it~ but no he didnt bother~ And i wasnt even told all the way until i spoke to him online at ard 11 plus pm~ Piss? Angry? Seriously i just feel like going to his hse there and then and give him a lesson he will never ever forget... But, of cse being the ever nice guy~ i told him its ok~

But wtf!!! apologising to me then has freaking no use!!! And wats worse!! bcos now theres 2 with the same timetable~ he told the rest to join his as its always easier for 1 person to add drop than the 2 of them to do the add drop... Im thoroughly disgusted~ Of cse, it sounds right to them~ its sounds right to me as well...

But!!!! Y do i have to be the one who has to add drop when i went according as planned!!!! That fat fark was so farking afraid to be alone that he changed Junhaos modules so that he would not be alone and thus would not have to trouble himself during the add drop period and now... i would have to clear up his shit for him!!~

Angry? Im just seriously disappointed in him... But at least now i know he is definitely not someone u can trust... As for junhao... i really wonder if he really doesnt know abt it at all... cos if he does know and didnt even bother to give me a msg, than its a goodbye to him as well..

2007-07-08T01:47:00.000+08:00

Wa!~~ finally done with my job haha!~ Its a conference called ICMAT~ Its a conference on materials engin as well as cancer.
Teckily teck and edmund got sacked on thursday... Well its more like there was nothing much left for them to do and so they are being retrenched... leaving me and daniel and the whole grp of the flying squad.

Didnt really like Ivan... Think the way he handle his staffs is just not right... Heard alot of bad things abt him frm various members of the flying squad. Anyway, on the whole the conference was a tiring but definitely an enjoyable experience. Gotta know some new frens like jay~ stanley~ brendan~ peisi~ wan wei~ zhi qin~ and many more!~

Think the most enjoyable moments must have been the times when the 4 gatekeepers (me,dan,teck,luke) sneak up to level 4 to eat the buffet lunch tt was meant for the delegates. Anyway, didnt regret going for the conference and now, im just waiting for my pay to be deposited into my bank acct =)

2007-07-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

think im kind of getting used to being disappointed with myself already... to the pt where its gone numb already...

as usual cant get the stuff that i really wanted... Didnt get into B&F.. Only got a business law... All the hardwork havent really paid off afterall... Cant even get to study what i like in the end...

Doing a temp job in suntec now.. Kind of tough but the pple there are fun so im kind of enjoying it though its really tiring having to stand for 12hrs straight. Its quite fun when u can do a job with a bunch of gd frens.,, =)

2007-06-08T16:17:00.000+08:00

Results are finally out... Well, kind of expected i would not do as well as last sem... but didnt expect it to be that bad... Only got 1 A out of my 4 subjects.. When i got my results, was feeling kind of miserable cos one of my more confident subjects pulled me down to rock bottom... Got a B for econs when i actually thought it would be one of the subjects that help me get my way thru.. The 1st time in my life where i couldnt get an A for a maths subject during a major exam... Guess i just didnt practise enough so basically i have no one to blame except myself ...

Of course i hear comments like.. hey at least ur gpa is still above 4 etc etc... but seriously... my expectations for this exam was much higher... Basically, there are no tiongs in my class and most of my competitors are just locals like me... So getting a grade B is really not good...
Actually, wats most disheartening is that pple whom i always thought aint as good actually scored better grades then me... Well ok maybe im being too competitive but basically i just hate it when i have to lose to those pple... Haiz.. Just feel so sadz and sianz now... Another module coming up next wed... Hopefully i can do better for that one...

2007-05-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

Yes! Finally got to watch the korean version of Lakehouse. I find the actress really attractive. If im not wrong she is most probably the same actress who acted in my sassy gal. Anyway, its a real touching story abt 2 pple writing letters to each other at a different timezone and one ending up getting killed while trying to meet the other. Luckily, the ending is a happy one cos the gal was able to make things right again b4 the guy got hit by the car. On the whole, i find both movies really nice~ =)

2007-05-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i last access my blog... So many things that i wanted to say but now that im logged on..cant seem to remember anything... Anyway, enjoying the hols now... Having special sem but have not started studying yet.. Still in holiday mood... Watched spidey recently..think its fantastic though its kind of sad during the end when harry died. Spidey looks way to nerdy to be cool when he has the black suit on but overall its still a good movie~ Things that i need to do for the hols... Go run run run.!~ Time to go take my ippt damn!~ Facing some prob with my new modem... Somehow there is always limited connectivity and i cant find the root of the problem.. And the singtel operators dun know their stuff... Freak!~

2007-02-21T04:05:00.001+08:00

feeling damn guilty now...didnt bring any work home during the 5 day hols for cny~ having 3 tutorials tmr and i actually didnt bring any home to do...

2007-02-06T01:02:00.000+08:00

Went celebrate huihuangs bdae on saturday. A few of the usual gang turned up and we ate steamboat at bugis. Was nice to see my dhs frens again. They were initially planning to go bowling after that but in the end decided against it. So, we just went home after that. Though a short meeting, it was quite enjoyable.~

2007-01-29T10:34:00.000+08:00

Got mobilised on saturday.. Took a cab and it took me twenty bucks to reach camp. Luckily, took with tecky so only had to pay twenty in all for both trips. Its nice to be able to see all the familiar faces again. Everyone seems the same except for a few with exceptionally long hair. Didnt wax my hair that day for fear that the officers wanna play punk and pull some stunts wan those with spike hair to shave botak... Only to find out that its kind of slack, there wasnt even an inspection for our items. Everyone just sit ard and talk cock whole time.

Stupid ah lau play punk again... Said he had some valid excuse when he didnt and in the end, we had to wait for him b4 my platoon can leave. In the end, we are the last platoon in the whole battalion to leave camp. Think he gotta wake up his idea b4 he gets aimed by everyone again, just like the 2 yrs in 5SIR..

2007-01-19T01:39:00.000+08:00

Damn~ thought all my duties for sub com is done... In the end still gotta be officials for athletics meet sianz... Finals will be on 27th, the day of my NS callup. Gotta go back this wk to pack all my army stuff, make sure everything that is needed are ard... Anyway, i still got one wk to get everything in place....

2007-01-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

Finally able to access blogger website. Well, start of a new term... Meet all the old faces as well as some new faces in class.. Tutors aint that good... Gotten an associate professor who speaks only to himself and no one in class understands a single bit of what was taught. Gotten 2 chinese professors as my tutors... Hopefully i can make out what they are saying for the remaining tutorials as well... Going to be with the same group members for 3 projects!~ Haha... Think the members in my group are quite smart and articulative, so most prob my projects shuld do well for this sem. The gals in our class actually complained and wanted us to split our grp. Will be taking 5 modules for this semester... Still considering if i should drop my PE - physics of sports... Will be taking Econs AcctII OB and Stats as my core. Acct II and OB aint the kind where u can get good marks just by studying. But i will still try my best and hopefuly score a gd grade such that i will be able to fulfill my dream of obtaining a double degree..

Life is getting more and more hectic and i can already start to feel the stress. My wednesday is so packed that i will have to be in school frm 830 to 1830 with only one hr break in between for lunch. Hope i will be able to keep up with the work load and maintain my momentum for the whole sem.

2006-12-29T00:02:00.000+08:00

Result is finally out! Overall, quite happy with my performance! Getting A+ for business law seriously came as a surprise to me. Usually when u are out of the examination centre u will have a rough guide or rather u will roughly know what grade u will get... When i was out of the examination hall, my 1st thought was...gone case... This was the only paper that i seriously had no idea what i was writing... For 2 1/2 hrs i was just trying my best to crap something out and make sure spaces in the booklet were filled up. When i discussed with some of my frens, i was even more demoralised cos some even said its quite easy... But to me it was really horrendous... Never to expect it actually turn out to be my best subject.

But i was quite sad for both FM and ACCT. Although getting A or A+ doesnt make a diff for my GPA.. but after the papers i was really confident that i would get A+ cos i knew how to do every qn and most pple complained that those 2 papers were hard. I aimed to get a 2nd spec in Banking and Finance and for that to happen, a very good grade for FM is needed.. Now im afraid that i might have some trouble in getting into B and F since i didnt make it into the top grade for FM...

Got a B+ for my IT. Was actually hoping for an A or A-. But kind of expected that it would turn out this way cos a few of my ans werent really good and well structured. Got a B for communications management. Quite sianz tat this stupid subject actually pull me down so much.Guess it cant be help since i didnt even put in any effort for this 2 AU subject.

2006-12-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

Told u not to pang sei me already... In the end, u still did... And i had to msg u to verify... If u knew frm the start then dun waste my time and tell me so i can hav other plans...

But then again, since its christmas, think everything shuld be forgotten and forgiven... Miss all the pple that are overseas now, leeting, xy and the rest.. Hope u all are doing fine and may we meet up someday soon.

2006-12-25T01:26:00.000+08:00

Nearly lost my hp a few days ago. I was on my way back home after going out with jx.. Slept thruout the journey back home and woke up just in time to get off at my stop, not knowing that i actually left my hp on my seat. Noticed something was very wrong once i got off the bus and i immediately checked my pockets and to my horror, found my hp missin. I immediately rush back home and called my hp only to be picked up by a female with a china accent. She was a real kind lady and agreed to wait for me at tanjong katong. I immediately rush down and all thanks to her i was able to get my hp back. I really wanted to thank her and treat her to a meal or something... But she seems to be in a rush and upon returning my phone, she just walked away hurriedly even b4 i could invite her for a drink. Anyway im so grateful and thankful that i can retrieve my phone back and thanks to her i am able to enjoy a happy christmas!

2006-11-30T01:51:00.000+08:00

Finally done with all the examinations... Not really enjoying my hols though... Really bored being cooped up in hostel with nothing to do... Finally done with sports meeting so shuld be going home tmr! yeah! its been a long time since i last went home... I think the last time i went home was one week b4 the start of exams.. Think i didnt perform as well as i expected it to be.. But im still hoping for miracles to happen.. And i strongly believe in moderation haha! I really hope all my effort and hard work didnt go down the drain =)

For now.. ITS PARTY TIME!!~

2006-11-13T05:19:00.000+08:00

its finally coming! 3 days frm now...
well i have read IT once thru le.. dun feel confident enough though..shall pia harder tmr... acct haven realy started yet...stop studying for it ever since after the assignment test.. must start on wed... read thru all of fm once...but still have not revised on the last few chapters tutorial... totally have not touched on my last paper...business law...but i believe i will do well! i will prove that being top in class for acct assignment test isnt just a fluke! I can do it i can do it!

2006-10-21T03:09:00.000+08:00

finally decided to watch all the episodes of fate.. as usual feeling really bad now..always hate sad endings but just cant stop myself from watching sad shows..they are so nice..but freakingly saddening... well just real sad that saber had to leave in the end..

2006-10-20T02:12:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i last experienced this..the feeling of defeat...I have failed miserable for todays quiz...And i was still so confident before entering the examination hall... All my hard work...haiz...

2006-10-11T17:58:00.000+08:00

Totally not productive...haiz... its time to limit everything....

2006-10-05T02:20:00.000+08:00

Feeling very down now... Always feels this way whenever i watch sad dramas... Firstly, must thank Xy for recommending this jap serial to me... 1 litre of tears is based on a true story. Basically it about a 15 yr old gal whos gotten a disease called spinocerebellar degeneration. It is a terrible disease where the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least. Haiz....

2006-09-30T01:18:00.000+08:00

Stressed stressed damn stressed...deadlines closing in on me and i have not even started on them! Omg! what have i been doing the whole hols? Wanted to catch up with all my lagging subjects but i dun even hav time to complete my work...must finish my biz law assignment tmr by hook or by crook...IT quiz on tues and i've not even touched it yet.. Monday presentation and i haven even completed it yet.. Acct project still needs to be improved on, IT project still needa go NTUC take down data...FM hav not even started....omg! Hai... things dun look too good...hope i can cope with the pace... Jiayou jiayou!

2006-09-19T00:57:00.000+08:00

Got back my quiz today..got 9half which was quite expected. Around half the class got full marks... Well, will be taking back the challenging one on wednesday. Hope will be able to do well for that test as well...

Cant seem to concentrate while studying... Dunno wat im thinking bout but think all this must come to a stop.. Starting to lag in class and think i have alot of catching up to do during the term break.

Wanted to organise a class outing during term break.. So far asked a few guys and gals and the response seems luke warm.. Think will just forget bout this whole shit and move on. Afterall, since everyone cant be bothered then y shuld i rite? Feel abit sad but well life goes on rite?

2006-09-14T18:11:00.000+08:00

Know its kind of stupid for me to say this but...if given a chance...i would really wish to go back in time...to my sec sch and jc times....to a time when life is not as stress as it is now....a time where life is filled with happiness and lesser hypocrisy... I miss life in dhs, tj and the army as well....

Acct simply aint as easy as i thought it would be... Having come frm a triple science background, I always had the mentality that 1 always equals to 1 and 2 = 2. There can be only be one correct answer to a qn. Sadly this doesnt apply here. Still remember my sec 2 Eng Lit teacher, Mr lau. He would always tell us 'if u think that 1 plus 1 always equals to 2 then u are so wrong!' At that time, all of us laughed at him cos no matter how u look at it..the ans is always and forever will be 2. Econs, Business law and many other modules will however, prove this otherwise... There is no definite ans to any qn in business law. The model ans will be an ans that is similar to what the prof feels. Though u find ur ans reasonable, he will tell u its wrong cos he thinks otherwise... Sadly, thats the way things go since he is the one assesing u and marking ur paper...

Think im still not used to this thinking that there is no standard SOP ans to a qn... Feel that im still kind of cut out for a science course instead... hai...

2006-09-11T17:50:00.000+08:00

Back from school..Abit sianz.. Minus half a mark for a really simple test... Its out of ten so relative percentage is quite high... Well just hope that it is the only mistake i have in that test... Kind of screwed up my presentation for today.. Not like i really give a shit abt it but then again.. ya sianz la... Haha fresh out of army wat do u expect? So when i made a mistake in my speech.. The word 'pui' just came out as naturally as a vulgarity would come out of daniel lims mouth haha... Well basically after the 'pui', my mind just went blank..didnt know wat i was saying and yup ..presentation just ended abruptly haha.. but heck la..its just the 1st of a series of presentations.. So im not gonna take it to heart and take things as it is lo.. Anyway though its core module... Its only 2 au.. so..ya wun really be bothered by it.. But the mistake made in my acct is really unforgiveable... Wasted one whole wkend and i actually made such a stupid mistake... I really am a noob hai... Just hope that will do better for my financial test that is coming up this wed...which is like...2 days frm now haha...

2006-09-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since i last updated again..Well cant be help... Been really busy with school work. Having 2 quiz and one presentation next week... Stupid acct lecturer... Adding in one chapter when we haven even gone thru that chapter's tutorial....No time for everytime feel so busy nowadays and i seriously hate this feeling...Its been a long time since i last went orchard...wanna take a break but things will only get more hectic... When will this break ever come? Hopefully can squeeze out one day during the e- learning week and go enjoy myself...

2006-08-31T01:39:00.000+08:00

Changed my class wrongly during the add drop period...intended to change to a seminar group that has most of my frens...Instead changed into another seminar that is on the same day same time same module but one room away frm the intended seminar group.... Freak! I don't know anyone there... Trying my best to know at least one or two in the class... Luckily got into a group..hopefully will try to know a few of them by next lesson...

2006-08-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

Fly fly fly!Take care panqin! Dun worry haha u will definitely pass ur prac test this time! Just dun slam the poor sheep too hard k? And try not to stick ur hand too deep in hor lol. Hope u enjoyed ur holiday back here in spore..Think u must have been very busy meeting all the different grps of frens haha..

Take care Xing Yun! Think once u reach there u will forget everyone including Damon haha! Anyway enjoy ur hols at USA and hope u will get use to life at waterloo uni! See you on 4th Jan!

2006-08-12T00:47:00.000+08:00

In a space of few days, i have heard of 2 deaths... One was my gf's former form teacher in mgs. Another was my fren's father. Ming feng, please take good care of urself and stay strong always! I know that its gonna be tough for u especially since u are the eldest of the 4 children. Just wanna let u know that if u ever meet up with any difficulties, I will definitely try, to the best of my ability to help and im sure the rest of the army buddies feel the same way too.

Life is really so unpredictable. One moment the person might be so active, alive and kicking and the next, he is gone. Dun live life to regret. Like what my fren stated in his blog, if there is anything you want to do right now, please go and do it. You never know what's gonna happen the next second. If you love your friends, tell them... If you love your parents, tell them... If you love him/her, tell him/her... If you love me, tell me... Don't wait till your loved one is lying on the hospital bed unable to hear anything then you start whispering into his ears about how much he means to you... By then, everything is too late..

2006-08-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

Ok finally back home to enjoy my public holiday. Just experienced my first lecture in NTU. Come to think of it the atmosphere seems totally diff frm the one i had in vj or tj... While in tj, basically i slept thru all the lectures, only to copy notes later frm those hardworking gals... But that sadly cant be applied in ntu...or at least for my course.. A 2hr lect... U see each and every single soul listening intently to what the lecturer is saying... My maximum concentration span seems to be abt 1 hr only... After 1 hr my mind starts to drift off on its own.. And when u look ard...u still see everyone busy taking down notes. Thats when u feel that something is not right... Everyone is really motivated to outshine each other.. And that really worries me abit especially since im new to this acct and econs shit. So it looks like i really have to put in my 100% and stop fooling ard anymore like what i did in sec and jc or i would get things screwed up one more time... This time i swear that i will do well and get at least a double specialisation. Hope i will be able to adapt to this new environment and cope well with my studies...

2006-08-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

School has finally started. Well my 1st day in school aint as bad as I expected it to be. Had one full day of business orientation. Got to know lots of pple in my class... Think all of them seemed to be really kind souls and I feel happy to be able to meet them. First nite in the hostel aint that bad as well. But a nite in hostel without a laptop is a definite no no for me. Luckily i was able to borrow Emily's laptop. Well hope i will be able to cope and do well in my cse and fulfill my wish of entering the double specialisation program. Anyway, burnt a hole in my pocket today.. Bought 2 textbooks and they cost a whopping 80 bucks! Shall try to buy 2nd hand frm now on if its not too old and still usable.

2006-07-31T23:27:00.000+08:00

Yes ladies and gentlemen. What u see is what u get bwahahaha! After months of indecisiveness, I have finally come down to a decision. Well, initially was pondering whether i shuld get an mp3 or simply just a 2gb memory stick pro duo for my Hp which can double as a mp3 as well...
And even if i get a mp3, which brand and type shuld i get? Sony?Creative?Apple? Its was during that time that i chanced upon this beautiful, slim and sleek looking beauty. Just one look at it and... I think some might call it love at first sight... Yes this is my dream mp3 and its now resting comfortably in my home sweet home... Though it may be true that u cant play photos and videos using this mp3..but basically who give a s*** man. Its still the most stylish mp3 i've ever seen... Well at least I think this is the right one for me and yup i'm quite happy with my choice! Yeah another wish fulfilled! All thanks to my mum and dad!

2006-07-30T03:07:00.000+08:00

One of the most tiring moments in my life... If u think SOC is bad, todays vball training is so much worse!!! This is especially so cos basically i have not done any form of exercise ever since my last IPPT which was like more than a yr ago. For the 1st time, my whole vision went blur while training, my legs went wobbly , my heart was thumping so hard that i could even hear it in my head and i was panting like a little doggy... Hopefully next training would be a little better....

2006-07-28T02:33:00.000+08:00

Really happy today! Was talking to pq on the msn.. Think its been like 4 yrs since we last had a gd talk with each other... Feel that she hasnt changed much.. Or at least to me, she still seems as cheery and energetic as ever.

She is now studying to be a vet in Edin. Kind of admire her.. In fact, kind of admire all those who are able to leave their own hometown for another country and still do so well for their studies when they have so much worries at the back of their head... Of cse that includes my gf as well... The feeling of leaving all your loved ones behind and flying off to another country all by urself... The loneliness they have to endure in the still of the night... Seriously... Im not sure if i will be as strong as them. I mean this is not a 1 wk or 1 mth affair... They have to be there all alone without the support of their family or their best frens for yrs... But in order to realise their dreams and a better future, that is what they must and will do. I wish them all the best and may they find happiness in everything that they do.

2006-07-27T02:59:00.000+08:00

Yeah got a new pencil box! Its a cool black puma pencil box and it cost me over twenty bucks! But tink its money well spent. Afterall, its gonna see me thru my 3yrs in NTU so im treating it as a gd form of investment haha! Basically more or less prepared for hostel life. Just need a fridge and maybe an additional fan or cooler to go along and im all ready! Cant wait to experience hostel life. Tink it will be no diff frm staying in the bunk though, just that u will feel abit more lonely and stressful since there will only be one roomie and im sure work will start piling up by the start of the 2nd wk! So all the best to me and my frens and hope we can start the engine of our rusty minds once again.

2006-07-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

Finally updating my blog after a long time... Well life has been quite monotonous after quitting my job... Met up with jing xin today and took some of her maths notes (lost most of my notes after 'A's)

Its been a long time since i last met up with her. Thought could meet up during chalet but didnt. Thought could work with her during this hols but my boss played punk and chose another guy instead. Though the guy, jeremy turn out to be a nice chap but was still quite disappointed that i didnt have the chance to work with her. Yup, so was quite happy that i finally get to meet her today.

Anyway, just heard frm her that pq is back in town. Have not really talked to her ever since sec 4 after my foolish acts... Hope i can meet up with her someday when the 3 of us are free and b4 she returns to UK for her studies.

Anyway, tmr is weijian's bdae. Hh and gang have decided to go celebrate his bdae. Still remember him trying to jio me out for lunch(MLM). Strangely, everytime he invites me, im always busy and by the time i was free, Gary warned me not to go cos he would try to pull me into MLM and sell me some bedsheets and stuffs at exorbitant prices. But nonetheless still treat him as a gd fren and will try to make it for his bdae tmr if i can make it hee...

2006-07-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my last day of work.. Having mix feelings... Happy that its finally over, sad that next time i wun be be able to find such a slack job anymore...Though the money is damn lousy...really enjoyed the freedom that i was given... Basically my workplace only consists of me and one colleague. My boss only comes once every two wks. Anyway, yup glad its finally all over and its finally time to enjoy myself b4 lesson commences.

2006-07-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

1 more day to D-Day!!! One more day and i will finally be free from the clutches of my boss Bwahahaha! tmr is my last day at work yeah!!! After tmr i will finally be free to do whatever i want haha!

2006-07-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

Was reading frens blog when I came across zz's entry abt visiting WK. Well, come to think of it, its been a long time since i last visited her.. In fact only went there once with all the rest of the tjcians and her gd frens.. Still remember the 1st time i met her.. It was during the 1st day of sch, which was during the orientation period. When she introduced herself as Wing Khum everyone started laughing.. Wing Khum (wind come), I thought was such a funny name.

Before u know it, Os out and both me and her got transferred to Tj. Both of us got transferred to the same class 13/02. However, on our 1st day she told me her gd frens are in another class and asked if i wanna change class together with her.. I refused cos i just got to know 2 gd frens Haopin and Cheeching and thus didnt wanna change class and try to make new frens again... At that time i admit i was quite anti social and dun really like to talk.. So felt it was bothersome to change class and try to make new frens all over again...The next day, she got transferred to another class and from then on we barely see each other and thus seldom converse..Even when we see each other, conversation was kept to the bare minumum of just a hello and goodbye...

Still remember the very last time i actually spoke to her in person... It was during Ippt test. It was at the sports hall where we do our sit ups. I still remembered her saying that she could get 5 pts easily for that station.. I regret.. I really regretted not talking more.. All i did was smile, said things that were of no importance and then walked away... In fact during that time i felt really awkward and wished for the conversation to end... Y? Now I feel really foolish really sad...I hate myself for being so quiet...Y am i so anti social?? I could have talked to her more? Y was i rushing to go off? What is there to feel awkward abt?

At the hospital, I cried really badly. I was quite surprised myself.. Cos im not the kind who cries easily.. In fact i simply cant remember when was the last time i actually cried b4 that day... Its seems that i simply couldnt control my tears... Think i was quite shaken by the fact that i couldnt see her ever again... And b4 that, there were still rumours of her getting better...

She was the one that came with me to Tj.. She was the one who introduced me to my 1st fren(cheeching) in Tj.Both of them were frm AHS. Before she changed her class, she even asked me to transfer with her cos she is afraid i will feel lonely... But what have i done? All i did was trying to rush away while she is talking to me...I know its too late for regrets now.. But i really wished that i could have done more... Sometimes , there seems to be so many things i wanna talk to her abt.. But somehow everytime i see her i will feel awkward and wanna end the conversation asap...

Ever since after that incident i have been trying.. I have been trying to be more friendly to everyone and to speak up more... History will never repeat itself. I dun wanna live to regret again... Wing Khum, rest in peace ba.. I miss u my gd fren...

2006-07-07T00:28:00.000+08:00

Disappointed..I am so freakingly disappointed in u..How many times do u have to break ur promises b4 u can wake up frm this deep slumber of urs? Always giving pple the impression that u are a hardworking ass who mugged it out during ur exams... But are u really studying? Let me tell u u bloody fool...a farker who stays in front of his desk for 2 shorts hrs can freaking study much more than u!!! Y cant u be more discipline? Cant u just stop drifting away? Stop giving me excuses. Dun give me excuses that u expected better for ur 'O's and ur 'A's. The fact is u got 10 for Os and only 2A for ur As and bcos of that u cant even study in ur desired Jc and now..ur desired course... U said u will study hard, u said u would definitely work hard so that u can catch up with those who studied econs during jc...April May June July...So hows ur progress??? How many chapters of accountancy?none..How many chapters of Econs??? 2 freaking short introductory chapters...Is that ur definition of working hard? Y? Can u tell me why? Im losing confidence...seriously...im losin faith in u... Can u pls wake up ur bloody idea!!! Theres still 1 more mth b4 term starts...pls show me some results so that i can at least trust u again pls...Wake up u bloody shit!

2006-07-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

I am totally, disgustingly, utterly devastated. Before world cup even started i had five teams in mind that would have a chance to lift the world cup. I would be equally happy as long as anyone of them becomes the overall champ and outshines the rest. Sadly, my wish was gone yesterday... Initially when Holland got kicked out I was like...well its ok afterall Spain is one of the 5 teams i had in mind. When Spain got kicked out thereafter...i was like well there's still 3 teams more to go so no worries abt it. When Argentina lost...i started to worry abit..hey its only the quarters and only 2 of my favourite teams are left. But yesterday, came the shocker news... England lost... Though only 10 men left in the field, they fought bravely. Its one of the best performance ever put up by the English men but nothing could go pass the mighty Ricardo. Only one team is left. All my hopes were then pinned on the former world champions Brazil. At that time i still firmly believed that Brazil will definitely go thru and reach the finals. When the final whistle was blown, i simply couldnt accept the fact that all is gone. None of the teams actually gone pass the quarters stage... Now world cup doesnt seem interesting to me anymore...all the teams that i support....none left...what is there to cheer abt anymore?

2006-06-26T23:46:00.000+08:00

Though only been away for 3 days, I cant seem to get use to the life in Spore anymore..at least at this very present moment.

Left office at around 4.30pm last Friday and boarded the bus at 5.30pm. Its was a long and gruelling ride to KL with the bus stopping over only once for dinner cum toilet break at around 1930. We finally reached our destination at around 2315. While trying hard to hold back our flood gates(bladder), we were stopped in the middle of nowhere and upon alighting, were swarmed by a bunch of taxi drivers shouting "want taxi?taxi?" We immediately called Yu ting as we frantically tried our best to squeeze thru the crowd. We finally found her at the terminal. That was when my impression of her totally changed. Initially before i went Kl, saw her thru some pics that my gf sent me. Had this impression that she was really lady-like and soft spoken lady. But in reality, she is very humorous and didnt really care bout her image in front of others and she is really brave and dares to voice out her opinion in public even if it risks her getting walloped up. In fact, im thorougly impressed by the way she complained to the manager about a waitress who was being sacarstic and nasty to us while taking our orders. And yes after complaining we just walk out of the restaurant haha!

Went straight back to her house as all of us were feeling drowsy after the ride... Was introduced to her flatmate Joanne. Though I didnt really talk to her, I think that she is a bubbly girl who is really friendly and nice. Early next morning, we went to a dim sum restaurant and ate to our fill before going to one of KL's biggest shopping centre, One Utama. The shopping centre was really huge but sadly we didnt have time to go thru every shop due to time constraint. We had our lunch at A&W. I really miss the curly fries and root beer float thus, its like reliving the old days. Afterall, u cant get it in Spore anymore.

Our next destination was Sungei Wan. Sungei Wan sells cheaper and more affordable stuffs as compared to one utama. Basically we shop all the way from noon till night time and bought a bit of items here and there... After that we had our dinner at a nearby hawker stall. It was really delicious and cheap! We paid less than 10+ rm each and had such a filling meal which consisted of steam fish, pork, soup, tofu and lots of vege.

Our third and last day was spent at chinatown. There are lots of cheap and nice clothings on sale. We had our lunch at a nearby kenny rogers b4 heading home to collect our bags and before we know it, we are already on our way home. Though i didnt get to visit quite a few other places of interest, i enjoyed myself throughout these 3 days and i must say its really an unforgettble experience.

Bus ride back was a bumpy one. Think the driver must have been a converted rally driver. He was speeding all the way and didnt even care to slow down when the bus was vibrating vigorously. Luckily, all of us managed to make it back safe and sound.

Hope Yuting , Joanne and kai jian will invite us over again when they are free so that we are able to visit the places where we have not gone to and i hope they will come Singapore too so that i can be their host and bring them ard Spore as well.

2006-06-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Tickets checked! Snacks checked! Malaysian ringgit checked! Bag big enough to contain anything that im buying checked! Finally, all ready to go KL haha! Today, went with dear to golden mile to collect our tickets for the trip. Spent a total of 90 bucks for the 3 tix. Initially, I expected a big group to be heading there since there is free accomodation and a beautiful guide (Emily's sister) to bring us around. Sadly most of my army frens have just renounce their foreign citizenship status and thus are not able to leave the country at the moment. Therefore, I decided to cut it down to as little pple as possible. It will be a 3 days 2 nights event and we will meet up with Yu Ting (dear's sister) there. Basically, she already have everything planned and all we have to do is to go there and enjoy ourselves haha! I'm pretty sure these 3 days will be one of the most memorable moments for the year.

2006-06-20T01:04:00.000+08:00

Well was browsing thru my folders when i found this story. Thought its quite meaningful so i would like to share it.

A Tale of Two Teardrops Two tear drops were floating down the river. One teardrop said to the other, "i'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. who are you?"

"i'm the teardrop of the man who regretted letting a girl go....."

she teardrop consoled, "there is often a time when we have to stop loving someone because we found out that they'd be happier if we let them go..."

he teardrop replied, "but then you'll know that you miss someone very much when every time you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick 'Hello' from that person brings the broken pieces back..."

she teardrop said, "it's really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let go; but it's even more painful to ask someone to stay if you can never make the relationship work out the way it should be."

she continued, "LOVE? it's kind of complicated, but i'll tell you this... the second you're willing to make yourself miserable to make someone else happy, that's love right there...."

he teardrop pondered and said, "you know, if i had the letters "HRT", i can add "EA" to get a "HEART" or a "U" and get "HURT". but i'd rather choose "U" and get "HURT" than have a "HEART" without "U"...

she teardrop smiled and replied, "giving someone all your love is not an assurance that she will love you back. don't expect love in return, wait for it to grow in her heart, if it doesn't, be contented that it grows in yours."

he teardrop continued, "she told me once, do not be too good, i will miss you. don't be too caring; i might like you. don't be too sweet; i might fall for you."

she teardrop smiled and said, "A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes."

She teardrop continued, "if you love her please let her know because it hurts to love when you have to go. take care of me; don't go away because if you love me, you will stay... i love you and do you know why? you got me when you first said 'Hi'"

he teardrop said, "you are brave she teardrop, now i know it's always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose it in the end rather than to never find love because you are too afraid of the challenge."

he teardrop continued further, "did you know that the expression "Nothing" is the subconscious mind's way of saying I Love You... that's what i do, i told her NOTHING and because of that i lost her even though i love her... i cry for the time that she was almost mine, i cry for the memories i've left behind, i cry for the pain, the lost, the old and the new. i cry for the times i thought i had her!"

she teardrop consoled, "Relationships are like glass, sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together, or worse, have nothing strong to bind it together. you never lose in loving. you only lose in holding back." he teardrop cried,"Now i know, i have learned. don't turn your back on love when it's already in front of you, don't drive it away from you because if you did, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once next to YOU..."

Well, so what are ur views on love?I think after reading this story, it allows me to appreciate my love ones more... Im sure there are many out there who are guilty with the crime of letting their most precious leave their side and only to regret thereafter. Sometimes, the situation doesn't allow for a second chance and what is gone might never ever come back. Thus, a word of advice to all couples out there..Appreciate what u have now and dun live only to regret later.Be more understanding towards one another and do not keep problems to yourself. Its always better to to have a heart to heart talk though sometimes u might not have the courage to do so. To my True love, I will always remember our time together for it has been really enjoyable. Im sorry if i ever hurt you but i hope you will forgive me when that happens.

2006-06-18T23:16:00.000+08:00

Just came back from chalet today. Its a nice feeling to be able to meet up with old friends and still speak to them freely as always. Things didnt turn out very well initially... While in the shopping centre waiting for the rest of them i was standing by the railings and unknowingly my bottle actually fell frm the 5th storey all the way down to the third storey. Luckily no one was hurt and an uncle was kind enough to pick up my bottle for me. Though i got lectured by him, i apologised and took my bottle back. I was only too happy that no one got hurt in the incident. After that we ate dinner at billy bombers. I had fish and chips and sadly it didnt turn out as nice as i expected it to be. In fact, personally i thought fish and co. was much better. After dinner all of us took ZZ's car and we proceeded to his condo, our venue for the chalet. We played abit of console games followed by majong throughout the nite. In fact, i think most of time was spent on playing majong. On the second nite, we had steamboat for dinner. Initially, we thought it was a complete failure cos the soup tasted more like boiling water with chicken stock. However, it turned out to be quite delicious when all the ingredients were added in. Everyone ate to their fill. We even had some wine after that. On the 3rd day, we had cup noodles for brunch before heading home. I had a wonderful time at ZZ hse and i must say its a marvelous feeling to be able to see ur frens again after such a long time. I certainly hope that my frenship with this bunch of friends will never end.

2006-06-18T23:13:00.000+08:00

Time really flies. Its already been a year... Thought i was able to get over it.. Seems like some stuffs just cant be forgotten...

2006-06-15T00:25:00.000+08:00

Saw a really cocky guy with his girlfriend while on the bus. Judging from his looks i think he is around eighteen yrs old or maybe a little older. He looks like those that likes to act cool and macho in front of girls. As the bus is quite crowded they are standing and holding to the sides of the seats. Along the way he is talking really loudly to his galfriend and when the gal starts talking abt this really handsome guy that they know, he started using vulgar languages. He even said tinks like "tell that guy come challenge me to soccer again la. Think he Bl**dy good. If not for my injury sure thrash him upside down!" Suddenly the bus driver made a sharp turn and the gal accidentally hit the woman sitting behind her. The woman gave a disgusted look. Instead of apologising the guy was like " hit abit only wat wats the big fuss!" Before alighting the bus, he went up to the woman again and said " hey auntie eh next time dun like pple touch u then go take taxi la eh dun come take bus ." The lady was so furious i could see her face turn black almost instantaneously. Though i think the lady is wrong in giving that disgusted look, i feel that the guy is even more at fault. Somehow i simply couldnt stand that guys attitude. At that moment i was really tempted to stand up and fight for the lady but somehow i just held back. Think i wun be able to forget that guys face for a long time to come haha...

England Against Paraguay

2006-06-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching the live telecast of England against Paraguay at a nearby coffeeshop. England won by a small margin of 1-0, thanks to an own goal by Gamarra. Though a supporter of England, I must admit that England was really lucky to have earned all 3 pts in this game. Personally, i felt that Paraguay was the better team but Valdez simply didnt have any luck in front of the goal post today. Its seems that England simply could not cut through Paraguays defence and this was especially so during the second half after Owen was subbed out and Crouch was left all alone upfront. In fact Paraguay had better chances of scoring as compared to the strikes made by England. I hope England would improve as they go along for if they continue to play in this manner, I think it would not be easy for them to even reach the semis.

Korean Drama - Full House

2006-06-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

Just finished yet another korean drama - full house. The cast consists of my favourite actress Song hye gyo and the great dancer Rain. Though its a happy ending..somehow I felt sad after the end. Seems like i expected more from the series..or another reason might be simply bcos i wanted to see more of song hye gyo and how their love story would develop after they got together..Thought i would have grown bored of her after autumn in my heart.. But after seeing her in this serial I finally know that she is still my number 1 after all this years..